Whisper To A Scream.

Whats the point of romance??

A New Begining.

Tomorrow is my first day.

Attending Cerritos College. This is the one thing ive been waiting my whole life for. My first class is Creative Writing, then i go home but im more than stoked! I cant wait for things to really begin.

This is the start of my path. The long path that will create the begining for the rest of my life.

One thing i will always remember on my journey, "Stay Positive and Love Your Life"

wise words from 311. :]

so as i sit outside in the late summer cold, a video to dwell on. :]

As I Watch The Smoke Rise.

I can't help but feel blank.

Sure, i know things are getting alot better. Romance, School, and my Writing is all coming together nicely, yet i feel this void...a rather big one at that. I cant seem to put my finger on it.

Im sitting outside, its 1:43 am, and im staring at the dim moon. Its so faint i can hardly see it and thats pretty much how i feel inside. There is definately something missing..

maybe im just mediocre.

It's Been A Few Days.

Since my last post...

and i still have nothing to say..

but thank you<3

and that i broke my glasses like a dumbass...

-__-

It's So Easy.

For Flesh To Forget Positivity.

Everytime things harden and crust over, what is the point of letting the mildew build over you?

If You Were A Book.

"I'd check you out..."

"Stray Away" by The Colourist live on KUCI 88.9FM from The Colourist on Vimeo.

Doppleganger.

My Friend Ivan...

Souplesse.

check out this trailer for an upcoming film that my friends are working on

goodjob guys :]

Souplesse Trailer 1 from Andy Nguyen on Vimeo.

btw thats my voice BAHAHA

Natural.

Today i was paid a long visit from someone that my heart could never forget.

Over the past few days, ive been talking to someone who i could never forget. this afternoon when she walked through my door and looked me straight in the eyes, i felt like a friend has come back into my life. We sat outside, passing Miyagi back and forth talking. As we worked ourselves indoor for a movie, i couldnt do anything but smile as we lay there, minds attatched to the screen of my laptop. after the movie we proceed to fight in my hallway, ending in the most romantic kiss i have ever experienced. we layed there in my hallway for hours, talking and holding eachother. after expressing our lingering emotions, we decided to just lay in eachothers arms. at that moment i was happy. i just want to thank her for making my day so beautiful.

Captivating.

this is an amazing video, with an amazing song...

gotta love it

SOUR / 日々の音色 (Hibi no Neiro) MV from Magico Nakamura on Vimeo.

Now Im Asking Myself.

If the universe is just a sporatic chain of events.

It seems like everytime I just sit back and let life take control of itself, everything just kind of fall into place. Yesterday, i went to a friends birthday kickback and as i stepped in i was greeted by people that i havent seen in years. i look around like, "fuck. really?" and little did i know, i was welcome. trading stories with old friends over a tall cup of beer and a few bowls of mota, everything just kinda ended up like it was before. Kickin' back just talkin and laughing.

I leave the party, and go on an adventure with Ivan and Andy. Were just driving around not missing a thing. We get the idea to go to UFO park and catch a few bowls. After the sesh, were all sitting in the car and what happens next? A cop car pulls in front of us. After asking a few questions, i tell the cop that i am in possession of marijuanna, and after a brief talk and no confiscation of anything i have, he lets us go. I couldnt believe that cop was so chill. HAHA.

Goodtimes.

Something Beautiful.

Thursday July 16th

I went to the beach with Xuan and Divjot to visit Mr. Thomas Hogan and have a nice day. While i just let the cold ocean water dampen my legs, I see an older man with a walker, wading to the oncoming surf. He sets his walker in the sand where he goes down on his knees and slowly makes his way into the water. Watching this man on his knees as the waves crash into him, I see the look on his face and couldn't help but smile. After a few minuets, the man is about 20 feet from the sand, laughing and enjoying the water around him. I couldn't help but analyze this. I couldn't help watching and wondering what peace he must feel inside. The joy that he must have been overwhelmed with to just be in the ocean. I think that he has somehow inspired me, in a very personal way. I'm very glad and thankful to have witnessed something as beautiful as someone just feeling happy.

-jacobo

A New Feeling

Today,

i hung out with some old friends, kinda a total throwback.

but, i think im having a new era begin in my life.

idk im not sure but, i kinda miss something...

but ive come to find, that far too often things are better left as they were laid..

so time to truck it on, start work soon, and just live a really really calm life.

i think that would benefit me more than anything...

Mr.Hogan

said something that hit me hard today.

i dont think ill ever forget it.

funny how it took me this long to realize it.

Give Me Treats.

i thought this was fairly awesome...

Cath...

an amazing song, and video by Death Cab...

Cath... from Miky Wolf on Vimeo.

Summer Sunset.

this is probably the best thing to happen to me on a regular basis this summer..

I Really Thought

That She Knew Me Better..

I have been completely misunderstood. I tried to prove to someone that for once, I can be something to someone. While I thought that everything was just fine, it wasn't. The flowers, the suprises, the seemingly endless night texting and chatting, kind of stopped mattering at some point. I know that at some point, this wasn't an idea that was mustered alone. You think you have truly exposed yourself and all that you have to offer, even in a dibillitated emotional state. I showed her who I was, but that wasn't enough. In response to this sudden notification of lack of skill and lack of appealing matter, I will just pedal on. There's no need to dwell anymore. There's no need to sit alone thinking about what if, because that what if isn't something thats going to happen.

.

Tomorrow morning, i am going to visit an old teacher and play catch-up. lets hope everything goes well, *cheesey smile* because i missed him. haha, alright well its time to get off this damned blogger and get some shut eye.

-jacobo

That's A Nice Plant

so, the day went swell..and as the night fell, i began to grow excited.

the girl, i came to see is coming, and i can spend sometime with her, and shit goes down.

the girl ends up leaving without me having the chance to say goodbye.

i baught her a nice lilac plant too...

and she didnt take it home..

so now im home, sitting in front of the computer.

mind swirling in thought...

damn.

An Ode.

this is old, but i just wanna give it out to a group that always puts me in the right mood.

this is probably one of the best hiphop groups of all time..

Forget What You Have Heard.

A Positive Mind...

will always conquer. i wont delete my last post so that i can reflect on how the mind always acts on the now and the negative. but why??

why do i automatically jump to the most depressing and unnatural conclusion?

doesnt matter now, what matters is that i stay positive

thank you for words of courage..

Space Jam

The Time Is...

4:27 am, on a Wednesday morning.

im watching Space Jam with Johnny and Andy, sitting on the floor typing again. We went to Turnbull Canyon, a pretty creepy place that a good number of people have died at and/or been murdered at. Its a pretty interesting place, i just wished that we wouldve gone inside the actual canyon and lurked around the surrounding area. haha, never the less, it was a pretty awesome night just driving around listening to music. I kind of needed this night with the whole UNEMPLOYEMENT thing boiling over.

Also, there are high chances that soon i will be homeless. Im literally on the verge of being kicked out of my house because i cant get a job. The permanent modification of my earloabs have prevented me from obtaining a job in order to support myself.

15 months of pain and hardwork, all to be ripped from my ear. Forever leaving a lasting mark on something i did for personal pleasure.

No longer can i say, that my body is mine and will not effect living conditions.

Right along with me being a jobless hobo, i am a lonely pesticide. Something that isnt wanted or appreciated.

But all i can really do at the moment, is sit back and wait for things to improve. no. i have to forcefully make things improve, for myself and the people that i surround myself with.

im trying to make this all better, but its a long hard road that i might not be able to take right now. Running off to Indiana seems kinda nice, although everything i hoped for and loved in California will be put at stake.

at least i have people here to help me through this, even though it feels like no ones here for me.

Dead Hour.

I Found A Ghost.

Fourth.

Yesterday,

was independence day. it was pretty awesome. Xuan came over earlier in the day to acompany me while i baby sat and got ready to go to ivans. after a trip to my favorite conveniance store, we made our way to the gathering. from about the time i got there to the time i left is one blur. within ten minuets of my arrival, it was taquilla who would entertain us on this grand holiday of destruction and patriotism. Taquilla, Jager, and Miss Mota did its job and in no time, neither me or ivan could stand straight.

random escapade from last night.

Weird drunk dudes, probably like ten of them, are all walking down the street. a guy comes up to us asking us for a ride and hell pay us 40 dollars.

so we denied and he persisted.

"dude, its free money. c'mon man, give us a ride"

then the unthinkable happens, he looks at ivan, wearing his stoner glasses and says, "4 bucks if you take those glasses off, theyre gay"

so theres more riff raff and ivan wants to fight, haha

so the guy walks away and ivan is pissed off for the next 30 minuets. hahaha

goodtimes.

Did i lose the chance?

yeah i feel like i got showed up.

haha, for lack of better words. i feel like someone beat me to the punch by doing something that i think is lame but probably was like superbadass for her.

but i hope like, that shes still interested in me.

haha, i just kinda forgot she reads these...

dammit xD

Being Sick

In this very moment, in my current state of illness,

no longer do i feel the pressures of momentary sickness.

nature is stronge. this we know as a fact.

Fishing.

i went fishing today with, Andy, Ivan, and Thao. besides being sick, not catching ANYTHING, and the extreme wind, it was a really awesome day. We all just kinda hung out and kept recasting our lines. haha, me and ivan caught a sesh so we were feeling pretty nice with the cool breeze. after we left, me and the guys went back to my house where they played wow and i downloaded an emulator for ChronoTrigger, and a .exe file of Final Fantasy 7.

im planning on replaying those 2 games because i stopped playing World Of Warcraft.

now, i have a reallly reallly runny nose, and i know tmw ima be wayyy more sick. so im going to get some rest so i can heal up just a little bit.

goodnight

Spit

awesome vid.

great tricks.

love it.

Fun With Bikes! from Patrick Lawler on Vimeo.

What A Day

i wake up, sick. i knew it would happen. so i crawl out of bed, father dead asleep and just clean. i like to clean and get stuff done when im sick cuz it takes my mind off of it, and i always tend to recover faster.

so after cleaning the house, and cleaning my room til its spotless, i get all dressed and walk my ass to the bike shop.

after getting stopped by a cop and buying the tube, i make my way to andys house. at andys i fix my tire and all that jazz.

5 minuets into riding, i hear an extremely loud "pop" and my new tube is flat. so i keep walking to breannas house, and when i tell her to go outside, she doesnt reply.

i say, "fuck that" and start to walk the loooong way home.

im at home, kinda upset, so i just brush it off and bust a solo catch.

just relaxed at home, and night falls where i get Xuan to come pick me up so that we can go get boba. haha, now im here, listening to kjazz outside, as always.

difficult day if you ask me...

but its okay, we all have em.

PETA vs. Obama

so PETA, the People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals, got upset about Obama swatting a fly during an interview... are you fucking kidding me...? peta, ive supported you for the last 6 years, and now, you are becoming an organization that just shoves their opinion down everyones throat... vegetarianism and being an animal rights supporter isnt about forcing what you think on the world, its being yourself and being an example.. this maybe be old news but i think its something that no ones really speaking up for.

i think that maybe, if PETA decided to do less extremist actions, then people would undoubtedly pay attention to them. PETA's views are strong, but doesnt belong in an environment that creates hostility. i mean, isnt being a vegetarian based on the laws of peace?

to not kill for food or pleasure?

but to treat animals and people alike, and create a positive message?

yet, we see animal activists protesting by splashing paint on windows and on clothes of major fashion stores. PETA is no better than Fundamentalist Christians who believe that global warming is a myth created by the devil to get ppl less focused on God..which is indeed what they believe.

i hope that this post is read often and indepth, and reposted.

obama..

a weekend not a weakend.

Friday, i am feeling great!

After the most aggonizing Toy A Boy J practice ever, we head out for a night on the town.

we go to this show, havin a sesh drinking beers in the parking lot, and when we go inside...we soon find out, this is kinda a christian evironment. so after like 2 bands we decide to leave that place and go get a girl i really wanted to see. so we pick her, and a bottle of jagermeister up even though i vowed not to drink that night.

as i was saying, we pick her up, she gets in the car and im immedeately flabberghasted. so shes sitting talking away as i admire her. we get back to andys and decide that we should walk across the street and have a little sesh, just me and her. we ended up sitting there for a good 30 to 45 minuets just talking, having the time of our lives.

we come back to the porch where the guys are already drinking.

i join in and just let friendship and good spirits fill the air.

1 am comes around, and we take her home. i think ill remember these words more than anything that night, "when i get back...im taking you on that date!"

that moment i completely forgot about everything that has ever beat me down and anything that was hurting me at that moment. i felt completely at peace and happy.

we come back home and sit and drink til about 3 am, laughing and talking, expressing our gratitude towards eachother with shots of jager and stale cigarettes.

Saturday, i felt good til i threw up.

i come home feeling just fine. no hangover at all...until i start drinking again.

it was my cousin Nomie's 10th birthday supplied with LOTS of drinks for the adults.

all i really remember is, 13 beers, my mom trying to fight, my mom crying, marborol lights with my aunts boyfriend, 99 bananas, jager, making my cousin give me bracelets, chips, and throwing up...

Sunday, i am hungover.

I start my morning with frozen Taro yogurt. Not a good choice.

i come home and i have a solo sesh to calm the mind and tummy. Andy and i have a little practice but hes in such a badmood i couldnt really enjoy my day. lol sorry andy.

so i got home and went to el pollo loco. im feeling alot better but i might be getting sick lol.

thats pretty much the weekend..

overall, she was my highlight.

my friends and family made it great.

but the alchohol destoyed my sunday.

hahaha, great success in the worst way.

but im taking a break from drinking for a little...

Focus.

2 of my best friends, a girl whos caught my eye, cigarettes, mota, and a bottle Jagermeister made the night. with my body warm, my head light, and my heart warm, i sat and basked in the surroundings.

ive decided to sorta do my own thing with music for a while until andy feels ready to join back in.

but im perfectly fine with that.

and i have a date. but i dont know forsure yet if she thinks its a possible companionship.

haha, so this is all kinda just random rambles...

but its pretty much the only way im gunna be able to express my thoughts at the moment..

this feels new...but yet, it feels like ive known her for a very long time.. but i have to admit i was nervous.

and my friends, drunk as ever haha..

i also helped xuans family move a little bit this morning. haha

i think i looked tore up as shit.. lol

im just happy, about to get ready to leave to riverside for the rest of the weekend :]

dopesskiies

Thrities.

my mom got me stuck on this...

definately some of the most interesting times...

Handrolled To Perfection

another night, sitting in front of the screen of my laptop. Typing away with the biggest smile on my face. for once its a pleasure to meet someone who is on the same page as me..

were starting to get to know eachother very well..

potential companionship or just a friend?

id say that theres alot in her that im attracted to.

and thats often hard to find..

im popping outside every hour or so,

filling my lungs with tobacco smoke..

feeling the cold air of the summer nights...

enjoying it while its here because soon its gunna get realllly hot. lol

tomorrow, im hopefully going to the beach..

and its a date :]

im excited to see how it turns out..

ciao

i think ive found it

my most favorite thing...

88.1 kjazz and a cigarette..

this has pretty much become my thing haha

http://www.jazzandblues.org/index.aspx

online streaming...

makes for the best of nights

Gobots In LA

Transformers premier anyone?

it was wack. hahaha, but being in a city with a heartbeat feels good everyonce in a while. but wheres my fixed when i need it?

hahah, well anyways im dying to get some REAL transformer time in..no more paramount cgi trash....

but one thing i do have to say...Transformers was fucking action packed! good action...really good action.

2 am

today, me and Ivan, a new friend, drove down PCH looking for a place to have a sesh at.

we end up somewhere on the coast between seal beach and hunington beach, and we indulge ourselves in pure relaxation..

i come home and gather my belongings and make my way to andys...

after laying around, doing nothing, we decide to just drive.

long beach, lakewood, compton, bixby knowles.

cigarettes, greentea, lotto scratchers, and jazz.

conversations about music, literature, and all around life.

and as we sit in front of my house laughing about a drunk text, i realize, life in itself....is pretty amazing. the twists and turns that you meet at every stopping point, doesnt always have to be bad. it doesnt ever really have to mean anything. if you sit back and let life take the wheel, you dont need any worries. just take things as they are, and appreciate everything for what its meant to be.

tmw toy a boy j rekindles its dying flame..

im excited. <3

Realizations.

Film Is Dead.

and i got a Lomo Holga. such an amazing camera. i have yet to get film for it because its pretty hard to find, but right when i do...expect links to my photoBlog.. :]

Herbal Clarity

today,

i pretty much fixed everything that was destroying me.

i seriously did NOT think i could do it. as i sit in my room, listening to hook by the Blues Traveler surrounded by the aroma Herbal Clarity [its from my oil burner], im pretty glad i did it..

i registered for college today. i take my assessment tests on monday then by fall i should be a student at Cerritos Community College.

haha win for jacobo :]

shit. love. happiness. angst.

i got a new laptop today for college

pretty cool shit.

but somehow im still dying inside

im not in this for myself anymore, im in this to save you...

because i think thats what i have to do, even though it means that i feel heartache every second that i breathe. i really think im just coroding away inside...

if i was never there, i know you wouldnt be who you are now..

and if i leave, does that mean you'll go back to the way you were before?

All The Time

2 days ago.

i turned 18. we had a pretty chill kickback at my big brothers house. lots of beer. lots of friend. little bit of trees. it was pretty fun. my girlfriend even stayed the night and that too was fun...

andy ended up super fucked up...and i didnt go to bed til 4am.

the next day i got up at 7am to go to school and when i get there im still drunk.

so i light my smoke and try and play it off. 3th period comes and i feel queezy. so i go to the bathroom to smoke a cig with a friend, and the principal walks in.

im over here shitting bricks thinking im suspended and i cant walk at the grad thingy...

then after a short discussion, i hear.

"youre 18, go sign yourself out...ill see you monday"

got off clean.

that night, we go to a kickback.

the whole nights a blur.

too much jack daniels and vodka.

and today i kinda felt shitty but i was alright. i got about 150 bucks from my family and decide to go buy a sweater from the buffalo exchange.

and now im just sitting in my room listening to sonic youth, who is probably one of the best bands of all time..but thats just me..

night.

Fucking Excited!

Im REALLY REALLY fucking excited for the first week in June.

My 18th Birthday is Thrusday,

but honestly, Im more excited for the new dance gavin dance album, Happiness...

they are, and always will be my frav band of all time,

and i think for my birthday im going to get them tattood on me..

Personal Computer

so finally i have my own pc in my room and all that shit...

im currently downloading wow so i can get back to playing

and im gunna dl gunbound tonight

hahaha im pretty fucking stoked haha

so yeah, back in the technology grind which can only benefit me from here on out

hahaha

which means especially more blogging haha

i will be making a photoblog pretty soon so that will be pretty dope

well, im just keeping you guys posted...

peace<3

Insanium In The Crainium

I just came back from las vegas...

the plants were green

the lights were lit

the weather was hot

and i dont remember most of the nighttimes

and i saw startrek twice

but on a serious note:

what the fuck is going on in my life.

i have two extremes working against eachother at all times. The happiness in my life is flouring when im having the slightest amount of fun. But certain things are completely falling apart.

i dont know whether to be happy about the good stuff, or depressed about the bad stuff. all i can really tell at the moment, is that this isnt going to end well. Will i let the bad parts fall apart, and rise. or do i miss the things crubling into nothing. 

i turn 18:

in like 2 weeks

and this makes me realize some cool shit. im 18 and ill be in college and my parents will be off my fucking back..ahaha

i graduate high school:

June 15....

im stoked for college...

but i think that might be my whole post right there....

A Day of Old Memories

2 years and a few months ago...

I commited myself to living a life without meat, 

and a soon after the 2 year mark, i receeded my modern and beneficial life style because

some i though i cared about said it was "stupid".

but with all the freetime to think, i realized that vegetarianism is the more appropriate life style for me....

with someone by my side who is also commited to this lifestyle, its easier to be myself..

yesterday came with NO struggle and i felt like i had never stopped...

it was a good feeling to be at peace with the animals and living beings on earth again.

and it feels good to say once again, 

"No Thanks, I'm Vegetarian."

Nighttime Adventures

Friday May 3

While me and andy persue our dreams during the day,

nightfalls and Monica comes over..

just a side note, i havent seen her in 6 months

anyways, and even in red marine core sweats,

she was the most beautiful thing to cross paths with me in ages..

a close hug...one you would never forget.

a hug that said more than i couldve mustered out of my mouth

even with my mind racing and my knees shaking..

and then a kiss..a kiss i wil never forget..

a kiss that whispered louder than every minute thought, and every extraordinary feeling circulating through my veins.

we travel to chain reaction to pick up some friends

soon after were at a friend [thao]'s house and i cant help but admire Monica's beauty all night..

we took her home, but my mind stayed with her,

and her spirit with me..

Saturday May 2/Sunday May 3

Well, this was a very....

dull night..

we were supposed to go to a party but, it didnt work out thanks to the most wonderful thing ever..World Of Warcraft..

yeah our ride was too busy, oh well.

and me and Andy notice we are out of cigarettes..

so we venture to the local gas station

on our way, im staring at the ground and out of the corner of my eye i see something..

i say outloud, "is that money"

sure enough, it was a 20 dollar bill.

so me and Andy split it, and walk home with 2 new packs of cigarettes each, lmfao

i know i know, we couldve done something better with it, BUT..

we didnt.. :]

random art

Some random pictures by me...

Happy Earthday

Happy Earthday.

1st thing when i wake up,

and i brush my eyes clean and pour my morning cup of Joe.

i sit in front the burning white light of the computer

and think...

"several months ago...

i decided to retire my vegetarianism [that was borderline vegan] temporarily

[and everyone knows it was in fact temporary].

but the 2 years of being vegetarian were hard

yet, the last few months eating meat have been harder..."

random mental notes....

lets see if it really goes anywhere..

have a pleasant earthday! ride your bikes!

C.R.A.N.K. Mob

Saturday, April 18, 2009

i attended my first C.R.A.N.K. Mob, and....

it was an experience of a life time!!

there were so many people all riding fixed.

there was dick ass police.

people trying to fight us..

haha people taking pictures.

my legs moved so fucking fast too. lmfao.

40-17 gear ratios are awesome!!

hahahaha

and after..

hill bombing on Hill Street...

fucking intense..

<3

haha i cant wait till next crank mob.

Fixed

Lately..

a trend is building in fixedgears, or trackbikes,

whichever you prefer..

i think it sucks...

then again, it honestly ispires me to ride it more.

and since i have no other bike.

fixedgear is kinda the only thing i got right now,

so might aswell ride it..

i wish i had a good bike though hahaha

lets hope i get a job soon!

Thursday April 2nd

I Found Out...

i am a criminal...

I went in for mytickets n shit...

and i owe 672 dollars..

i have no idea how im going to pay for this, but i can pay

minimums of 25$ a month..

so we'll see what happens. lol

<3

lets hope this drum can pay these bills..

Dave Trautz 1st Solo Show

No Future Cafe..

presented what u would call an understatement of an amazing night.

3 amazing bands.

but i know who i went to see..

Dave Trautz, lead singer of The Ready Aim Fire.

1st song, Cigarettes was an unexpected one, and made me tear at the eyes.

everysong he played was even better than the studio version.

When cold calling played, i called my girlfriend so she can hear the song i 

dedicate to her, and in my favor she was peeing and answered on the last minute of a 6 minute

song. lmfao.

but yeah, had a cigarette with dave afterwards and talked about wisdom teeth and some other random shit, met the rest of the band

theyre definately some pretty fucking cool dudes,

i was really happy to meet them all and see some really good live music.

and it personally inspired me to keep steady playing music in Toy A and Boy J

:]

A Body Filled With Content

THIS..

Body im in, feels more content that ever before...

Inside i feel completely at peace.

Im sitting in my big brothers room listening to The Ready Aim Fire

thinking about everything and nothing, while the taste of cigarettes runs through my head..

i think life is absolutely perfect..

Today, me and andy had our first practice for our side project 

"toy a and boy j"

and it became more than what i expected.

i can see this going places.

And in my head. 

the only thing i could concentrate on was Monica Vanesse Mota.

"I THINK IM FALLING IN LOVE"

its true.

i think i am. 

things are starting to piece themself together..

I can see the current stabilities in my life,

and they hold no sign of letting up anytime soon.

and infact define themselves as what i stated them to be...

STABILITIES..

and as i wait for this monday night to work itself out,

with plans of horror filled adventures draws near

i sit and wait, and think of the things that i love.

the things that love me.

and the things that i were meant to be

i just smile....

because i know it all to be true...

Andrew, you may have messed up,

but youre still in my heart.

you are my brother.<3

Do Something Good

I thought this was seriously the coolest wheatpaste ever...

FixedGear.

Bmx.

Roadbike.

Or Shitty k mark bikes.

Ride a bike.

help save our environment.

help yourself have fun.

be yourself.

riding a bike,

just makes sense.

Irish Tradition, American Rendition

St. Patty's Day:

st. fuckin' patty's day.

a day when us irish folk, gather 'round n drink n talk and have fun.

and when everyone else thinkgs they can be irish too!

but they cant.

haha, but personally, i blieve [sorry ive been drinking] that St.Patty's Day,

is a day of gathering beyond ethinic boundaries.

Today my st.pattys went like this:

Went To School.

Got Out Of School.

Hung out at Christines.

Went to Derreds

Started drinking beer, smoking cigarettes and playing darts.

hahaha it was so fun!

Went home to an irish stew and potatoes.

and now im drinking a guiness.

good day.

just wish i was at a party

next year fa show!!

well,

everyone have an awesome st.patty's day.

<3

Some Vacant Situation

some poetry by me:

Some Vacant Situation

Change has given something to offer

As winds incuce dialation

And a heart desperately given to her

As I can feel color's concentration.

Appropriate asfixiation on the user

Yet I can still feel what's been given,

And I can't tell if im the victim or the abuser

From the focues feelings that I have driven.

The gradual growing of green beneath me

And the ocean breathes sound toward my hair,

With the feeling deep inside me

That gives life to the seldom screaming air.

Remember this is no dream

Just a vacant situation

From heart to her

From heart to her.

Friday, Saturday, and Sunday

My last weekend was awesome.

Friday's Contents Include:

Rode to andrews

Dropped off my essay

Hung out with andrew n christine for a bit

Got a ride home from Andy

Got picked up and tooken to Riverside

Filmed some street with Taylor: this kid is fucking amazing, he smithed this ledge light...over bar height...geez, then filmed a rail sesh, throwin down unbelievable shit.

Went to jarupa skatepark and watch my ol' love while smokin my buddy Newport Menthols as usual.

Went out for some nighttime filming but didnt get alot done.

Sleep...

Saturday's Contents Include:

Woke up around ten.

Went to the new downtown Riverside skatepark.

Filmed gnarley shit til about 2

Parted ways and hung out with my uncle.

Went to Jarupa and rode for the first time in a long time.

Sleep...

Sunday's Contents Include:

Woke up.

Did nothing.

Rode jarupa.

went to Fry's hahaha disneyland for nerds.

Drooled over RE5..

Went Home.

And just sat around..

Pretty good weekend if you ask me..

Filming was hella wicked.

Ill post the vid when its all said and done, hopefully what we shot was enough, but i can leave the rest up to my uncle since i cant stay out in riv longer.

Today Is The Day

Indeed it is.

today my journalism paper is due.

i must mail it out by 5 p.m. today.

please wish the best of luck to me cuz this is something im kinna hoping i can suceed in. 1000 dollars is alot of money for me, and it would really help me out with alot of things.

plus the exposure from this assignment could help my carreer advance very steadily.

"what matters most"

what a broad and undescriptive subject matter.

yet, i have SOMEHOW, pulled 147 words out of my fucking ass and wiped them on a shitty dell keyboard.

well, when the results come in a month or so from now, i will be here.

telling you what the fuck happened.

hahaha.

jacobo out.

A Work In Progress

After ages of writer's block, and a sick heave of artist's block,

An idea has ventured into my head. Recently I have taken up trackbikes or more commonly known as FixedGears, or Fixies. So i have been pursuing my journalism interests very heavily lately trying to find myself interested in a career perspective.

It seems more than possible and like an idea that would be fortunate to myself and others. 

My first fully documented subject will be on a large FixedGear Ride.

Documenting what exactly a ride IS, how the rider feels emotionally and physically while on their track bike, and the community.

A brief introduction to what a fixie really is.

whadya think?

good idea? i have one more.

but im saving it for when its ready to unviel.

so next big ride, you'll see me and derred with a fuckin camera.

HAHA

<3

Jumped For Art.

Last Night, around 8:15, i was physically assulted by two black guys, and robbed.

i was walking my bike when two black dudes came up to me and began questioning me,

Black Guy: "Ey you got like 5 bucks?" [lmfao. im totally trying to mock them..]

Me: "Naw, i dont have any, sorry" and i tried to continue walking.

Black Guy: "You got like...1 dollar?" 

My immedeate response is: "I dont have any money."

Black guys: "whats in your bag?!"

Me: "Just school shit, art and poetry"

Then i was punched. I didnt really see it coming or anything so i kinna hit the ground. So i guess there was 2 hits. lmfao. but dispite the fact of me only having art, poetry, and about 30 dollars worth of pens, and 2 Marboloro Smooths, that were supposed to be for me and andrew this morning, my new messenger bag was still taken. I was kicked a few times while i was on the ground. and luckily they didnt take my bike. Then i probably would've hunted them down and killed them. I was kinna trying to protect my bike the whole time. But, nevertheless. 

I dont know what i have done for this to come to me. I think that the people that know me and are close to me, know that im always trying to do good to and for others. Im always very peaceful, yet this happens. 

My cheek is just a little bit swollen, but mostly my heart is.

But its okay. Karma is a wonderful thing. <3

Alright its off to school for me.

What Nothing Does To You

For The Last month i was grounded by my parents for getting a ticket. so i had a bunch of shit to do. and i was supposed to get off tmw and whatnot, but my parents as nice as they are, let me off early.

Desperate for adventure. I went riding with Andrew. So we went to buy cigarettes, and ended up with a fire-red hookah bong named Charmander. lol. 

So we were at andy's and he's been sick so i made him some tea stuff cuz im a nice little brother.

haha. and then we left riding. so the night pillows on and we go to hookah at christines. we do that for a while and i have no where to stay because everyones tired.

the last thing i wanted to do was to go home. so at midnight i walk the streets to Andy's, where i will decide my plans.

I was trying to go to a party with my amazing love, Monica. but wasnt welcome unfortunately. :/

so i ventured off to my friend cynthia's.

Im riding andrews bike to artesia high school, at 12:30 am, going about 30 mph. with no light haha. i get to her house and what does she pull out?

a box of cigarettes, a bag of chips, 7up, cherry juice, and a fucking huge bottle of Vodka.

we watch movies and drink the night away trying to understand eachother with her new english and my bad ears for spanish accents.

Now its 6 am. and i pass out. btw yes :] HAHAHA

i wake up at ten. wondering where i am. and say my goodbyes and quickly ride to andy's where we just talk. 

that was my night.

and now Im about to get ready to go to a BBQ with andrew.  so i will depart.

<3

Just a Boy Thats Pretty Fucked up.

My name is jacobo. 

First i will start off by telling you miscellaneous information about me so that you can get to know me a little. 

Its 6:27 am. and im getting ready for school. I attend somerset high school which is a continuation school. In 11th grade i dropped out and thats why i attend school there. i go there with my best friend Andrew Jones. 

-a funny looking guy that always knows the right things to say, sarcastically speaking. now he is dating my other best friend Christine. 

-who happens to be everyones obsession. lol. then theres Andy and Derred. theyre like my big brothers. 

-Andy's an asian indie kid who smokes WAY too much but is amazing at just about everything he sets his mind to. Derred is this whiteboy from st.louis whos dog smells but hes a a fucking BEAST on fixed gears. 

i have a blackberry. and it takes lots of photos. i love drinking coffee and newports with Andrew n Christine. thats pretty much one of the highlights of my life. lol

i ride fixedgears. i play drums, keyboard, and bass. i listen to everything. and i am an artist at heart.

i can promise you all, random blogs, fucked up pictures, and funny times. life is short. so stay positive. things always get better in the end. and every flower has to go through dirt...

okay Andy, are you happy now!?