Spit

awesome vid.

great tricks.

love it.

Fun With Bikes! from Patrick Lawler on Vimeo.

What A Day

i wake up, sick. i knew it would happen. so i crawl out of bed, father dead asleep and just clean. i like to clean and get stuff done when im sick cuz it takes my mind off of it, and i always tend to recover faster.

so after cleaning the house, and cleaning my room til its spotless, i get all dressed and walk my ass to the bike shop.

after getting stopped by a cop and buying the tube, i make my way to andys house. at andys i fix my tire and all that jazz.

5 minuets into riding, i hear an extremely loud "pop" and my new tube is flat. so i keep walking to breannas house, and when i tell her to go outside, she doesnt reply.

i say, "fuck that" and start to walk the loooong way home.

im at home, kinda upset, so i just brush it off and bust a solo catch.

just relaxed at home, and night falls where i get Xuan to come pick me up so that we can go get boba. haha, now im here, listening to kjazz outside, as always.

difficult day if you ask me...

but its okay, we all have em.

PETA vs. Obama

so PETA, the People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals, got upset about Obama swatting a fly during an interview... are you fucking kidding me...? peta, ive supported you for the last 6 years, and now, you are becoming an organization that just shoves their opinion down everyones throat... vegetarianism and being an animal rights supporter isnt about forcing what you think on the world, its being yourself and being an example.. this maybe be old news but i think its something that no ones really speaking up for.

i think that maybe, if PETA decided to do less extremist actions, then people would undoubtedly pay attention to them. PETA's views are strong, but doesnt belong in an environment that creates hostility. i mean, isnt being a vegetarian based on the laws of peace?

to not kill for food or pleasure?

but to treat animals and people alike, and create a positive message?

yet, we see animal activists protesting by splashing paint on windows and on clothes of major fashion stores. PETA is no better than Fundamentalist Christians who believe that global warming is a myth created by the devil to get ppl less focused on God..which is indeed what they believe.

i hope that this post is read often and indepth, and reposted.

obama..

a weekend not a weakend.

Friday, i am feeling great!

After the most aggonizing Toy A Boy J practice ever, we head out for a night on the town.

we go to this show, havin a sesh drinking beers in the parking lot, and when we go inside...we soon find out, this is kinda a christian evironment. so after like 2 bands we decide to leave that place and go get a girl i really wanted to see. so we pick her, and a bottle of jagermeister up even though i vowed not to drink that night.

as i was saying, we pick her up, she gets in the car and im immedeately flabberghasted. so shes sitting talking away as i admire her. we get back to andys and decide that we should walk across the street and have a little sesh, just me and her. we ended up sitting there for a good 30 to 45 minuets just talking, having the time of our lives.

we come back to the porch where the guys are already drinking.

i join in and just let friendship and good spirits fill the air.

1 am comes around, and we take her home. i think ill remember these words more than anything that night, "when i get back...im taking you on that date!"

that moment i completely forgot about everything that has ever beat me down and anything that was hurting me at that moment. i felt completely at peace and happy.

we come back home and sit and drink til about 3 am, laughing and talking, expressing our gratitude towards eachother with shots of jager and stale cigarettes.

Saturday, i felt good til i threw up.

i come home feeling just fine. no hangover at all...until i start drinking again.

it was my cousin Nomie's 10th birthday supplied with LOTS of drinks for the adults.

all i really remember is, 13 beers, my mom trying to fight, my mom crying, marborol lights with my aunts boyfriend, 99 bananas, jager, making my cousin give me bracelets, chips, and throwing up...

Sunday, i am hungover.

I start my morning with frozen Taro yogurt. Not a good choice.

i come home and i have a solo sesh to calm the mind and tummy. Andy and i have a little practice but hes in such a badmood i couldnt really enjoy my day. lol sorry andy.

so i got home and went to el pollo loco. im feeling alot better but i might be getting sick lol.

thats pretty much the weekend..

overall, she was my highlight.

my friends and family made it great.

but the alchohol destoyed my sunday.

hahaha, great success in the worst way.

but im taking a break from drinking for a little...

Focus.

2 of my best friends, a girl whos caught my eye, cigarettes, mota, and a bottle Jagermeister made the night. with my body warm, my head light, and my heart warm, i sat and basked in the surroundings.

ive decided to sorta do my own thing with music for a while until andy feels ready to join back in.

but im perfectly fine with that.

and i have a date. but i dont know forsure yet if she thinks its a possible companionship.

haha, so this is all kinda just random rambles...

but its pretty much the only way im gunna be able to express my thoughts at the moment..

this feels new...but yet, it feels like ive known her for a very long time.. but i have to admit i was nervous.

and my friends, drunk as ever haha..

i also helped xuans family move a little bit this morning. haha

i think i looked tore up as shit.. lol

im just happy, about to get ready to leave to riverside for the rest of the weekend :]

dopesskiies

Thrities.

my mom got me stuck on this...

definately some of the most interesting times...

Handrolled To Perfection

another night, sitting in front of the screen of my laptop. Typing away with the biggest smile on my face. for once its a pleasure to meet someone who is on the same page as me..

were starting to get to know eachother very well..

potential companionship or just a friend?

id say that theres alot in her that im attracted to.

and thats often hard to find..

im popping outside every hour or so,

filling my lungs with tobacco smoke..

feeling the cold air of the summer nights...

enjoying it while its here because soon its gunna get realllly hot. lol

tomorrow, im hopefully going to the beach..

and its a date :]

im excited to see how it turns out..

ciao

i think ive found it

my most favorite thing...

88.1 kjazz and a cigarette..

this has pretty much become my thing haha

http://www.jazzandblues.org/index.aspx

online streaming...

makes for the best of nights

Gobots In LA

Transformers premier anyone?

it was wack. hahaha, but being in a city with a heartbeat feels good everyonce in a while. but wheres my fixed when i need it?

hahah, well anyways im dying to get some REAL transformer time in..no more paramount cgi trash....

but one thing i do have to say...Transformers was fucking action packed! good action...really good action.

2 am

today, me and Ivan, a new friend, drove down PCH looking for a place to have a sesh at.

we end up somewhere on the coast between seal beach and hunington beach, and we indulge ourselves in pure relaxation..

i come home and gather my belongings and make my way to andys...

after laying around, doing nothing, we decide to just drive.

long beach, lakewood, compton, bixby knowles.

cigarettes, greentea, lotto scratchers, and jazz.

conversations about music, literature, and all around life.

and as we sit in front of my house laughing about a drunk text, i realize, life in itself....is pretty amazing. the twists and turns that you meet at every stopping point, doesnt always have to be bad. it doesnt ever really have to mean anything. if you sit back and let life take the wheel, you dont need any worries. just take things as they are, and appreciate everything for what its meant to be.

tmw toy a boy j rekindles its dying flame..

im excited. <3

Realizations.

Film Is Dead.

and i got a Lomo Holga. such an amazing camera. i have yet to get film for it because its pretty hard to find, but right when i do...expect links to my photoBlog.. :]

Herbal Clarity

today,

i pretty much fixed everything that was destroying me.

i seriously did NOT think i could do it. as i sit in my room, listening to hook by the Blues Traveler surrounded by the aroma Herbal Clarity [its from my oil burner], im pretty glad i did it..

i registered for college today. i take my assessment tests on monday then by fall i should be a student at Cerritos Community College.

haha win for jacobo :]

shit. love. happiness. angst.

i got a new laptop today for college

pretty cool shit.

but somehow im still dying inside

im not in this for myself anymore, im in this to save you...

because i think thats what i have to do, even though it means that i feel heartache every second that i breathe. i really think im just coroding away inside...

if i was never there, i know you wouldnt be who you are now..

and if i leave, does that mean you'll go back to the way you were before?

All The Time

2 days ago.

i turned 18. we had a pretty chill kickback at my big brothers house. lots of beer. lots of friend. little bit of trees. it was pretty fun. my girlfriend even stayed the night and that too was fun...

andy ended up super fucked up...and i didnt go to bed til 4am.

the next day i got up at 7am to go to school and when i get there im still drunk.

so i light my smoke and try and play it off. 3th period comes and i feel queezy. so i go to the bathroom to smoke a cig with a friend, and the principal walks in.

im over here shitting bricks thinking im suspended and i cant walk at the grad thingy...

then after a short discussion, i hear.

"youre 18, go sign yourself out...ill see you monday"

got off clean.

that night, we go to a kickback.

the whole nights a blur.

too much jack daniels and vodka.

and today i kinda felt shitty but i was alright. i got about 150 bucks from my family and decide to go buy a sweater from the buffalo exchange.

and now im just sitting in my room listening to sonic youth, who is probably one of the best bands of all time..but thats just me..

night.

Fucking Excited!

Im REALLY REALLY fucking excited for the first week in June.

My 18th Birthday is Thrusday,

but honestly, Im more excited for the new dance gavin dance album, Happiness...

they are, and always will be my frav band of all time,

and i think for my birthday im going to get them tattood on me..