Doppleganger.

My Friend Ivan...

Souplesse.

check out this trailer for an upcoming film that my friends are working on

goodjob guys :]

Souplesse Trailer 1 from Andy Nguyen on Vimeo.

btw thats my voice BAHAHA

Natural.

Today i was paid a long visit from someone that my heart could never forget.

Over the past few days, ive been talking to someone who i could never forget. this afternoon when she walked through my door and looked me straight in the eyes, i felt like a friend has come back into my life. We sat outside, passing Miyagi back and forth talking. As we worked ourselves indoor for a movie, i couldnt do anything but smile as we lay there, minds attatched to the screen of my laptop. after the movie we proceed to fight in my hallway, ending in the most romantic kiss i have ever experienced. we layed there in my hallway for hours, talking and holding eachother. after expressing our lingering emotions, we decided to just lay in eachothers arms. at that moment i was happy. i just want to thank her for making my day so beautiful.

Captivating.

this is an amazing video, with an amazing song...

gotta love it

SOUR / 日々の音色 (Hibi no Neiro) MV from Magico Nakamura on Vimeo.

Now Im Asking Myself.

If the universe is just a sporatic chain of events.

It seems like everytime I just sit back and let life take control of itself, everything just kind of fall into place. Yesterday, i went to a friends birthday kickback and as i stepped in i was greeted by people that i havent seen in years. i look around like, "fuck. really?" and little did i know, i was welcome. trading stories with old friends over a tall cup of beer and a few bowls of mota, everything just kinda ended up like it was before. Kickin' back just talkin and laughing.

I leave the party, and go on an adventure with Ivan and Andy. Were just driving around not missing a thing. We get the idea to go to UFO park and catch a few bowls. After the sesh, were all sitting in the car and what happens next? A cop car pulls in front of us. After asking a few questions, i tell the cop that i am in possession of marijuanna, and after a brief talk and no confiscation of anything i have, he lets us go. I couldnt believe that cop was so chill. HAHA.

Goodtimes.

Something Beautiful.

Thursday July 16th

I went to the beach with Xuan and Divjot to visit Mr. Thomas Hogan and have a nice day. While i just let the cold ocean water dampen my legs, I see an older man with a walker, wading to the oncoming surf. He sets his walker in the sand where he goes down on his knees and slowly makes his way into the water. Watching this man on his knees as the waves crash into him, I see the look on his face and couldn't help but smile. After a few minuets, the man is about 20 feet from the sand, laughing and enjoying the water around him. I couldn't help but analyze this. I couldn't help watching and wondering what peace he must feel inside. The joy that he must have been overwhelmed with to just be in the ocean. I think that he has somehow inspired me, in a very personal way. I'm very glad and thankful to have witnessed something as beautiful as someone just feeling happy.

-jacobo

A New Feeling

Today,

i hung out with some old friends, kinda a total throwback.

but, i think im having a new era begin in my life.

idk im not sure but, i kinda miss something...

but ive come to find, that far too often things are better left as they were laid..

so time to truck it on, start work soon, and just live a really really calm life.

i think that would benefit me more than anything...

Mr.Hogan

said something that hit me hard today.

i dont think ill ever forget it.

funny how it took me this long to realize it.

Give Me Treats.

i thought this was fairly awesome...

Cath...

an amazing song, and video by Death Cab...

Cath... from Miky Wolf on Vimeo.

Summer Sunset.

this is probably the best thing to happen to me on a regular basis this summer..

I Really Thought

That She Knew Me Better..

I have been completely misunderstood. I tried to prove to someone that for once, I can be something to someone. While I thought that everything was just fine, it wasn't. The flowers, the suprises, the seemingly endless night texting and chatting, kind of stopped mattering at some point. I know that at some point, this wasn't an idea that was mustered alone. You think you have truly exposed yourself and all that you have to offer, even in a dibillitated emotional state. I showed her who I was, but that wasn't enough. In response to this sudden notification of lack of skill and lack of appealing matter, I will just pedal on. There's no need to dwell anymore. There's no need to sit alone thinking about what if, because that what if isn't something thats going to happen.

.

Tomorrow morning, i am going to visit an old teacher and play catch-up. lets hope everything goes well, *cheesey smile* because i missed him. haha, alright well its time to get off this damned blogger and get some shut eye.

-jacobo

That's A Nice Plant

so, the day went swell..and as the night fell, i began to grow excited.

the girl, i came to see is coming, and i can spend sometime with her, and shit goes down.

the girl ends up leaving without me having the chance to say goodbye.

i baught her a nice lilac plant too...

and she didnt take it home..

so now im home, sitting in front of the computer.

mind swirling in thought...

damn.

An Ode.

this is old, but i just wanna give it out to a group that always puts me in the right mood.

this is probably one of the best hiphop groups of all time..

Forget What You Have Heard.

A Positive Mind...

will always conquer. i wont delete my last post so that i can reflect on how the mind always acts on the now and the negative. but why??

why do i automatically jump to the most depressing and unnatural conclusion?

doesnt matter now, what matters is that i stay positive

thank you for words of courage..

Space Jam

The Time Is...

4:27 am, on a Wednesday morning.

im watching Space Jam with Johnny and Andy, sitting on the floor typing again. We went to Turnbull Canyon, a pretty creepy place that a good number of people have died at and/or been murdered at. Its a pretty interesting place, i just wished that we wouldve gone inside the actual canyon and lurked around the surrounding area. haha, never the less, it was a pretty awesome night just driving around listening to music. I kind of needed this night with the whole UNEMPLOYEMENT thing boiling over.

Also, there are high chances that soon i will be homeless. Im literally on the verge of being kicked out of my house because i cant get a job. The permanent modification of my earloabs have prevented me from obtaining a job in order to support myself.

15 months of pain and hardwork, all to be ripped from my ear. Forever leaving a lasting mark on something i did for personal pleasure.

No longer can i say, that my body is mine and will not effect living conditions.

Right along with me being a jobless hobo, i am a lonely pesticide. Something that isnt wanted or appreciated.

But all i can really do at the moment, is sit back and wait for things to improve. no. i have to forcefully make things improve, for myself and the people that i surround myself with.

im trying to make this all better, but its a long hard road that i might not be able to take right now. Running off to Indiana seems kinda nice, although everything i hoped for and loved in California will be put at stake.

at least i have people here to help me through this, even though it feels like no ones here for me.

Dead Hour.

I Found A Ghost.

Fourth.

Yesterday,

was independence day. it was pretty awesome. Xuan came over earlier in the day to acompany me while i baby sat and got ready to go to ivans. after a trip to my favorite conveniance store, we made our way to the gathering. from about the time i got there to the time i left is one blur. within ten minuets of my arrival, it was taquilla who would entertain us on this grand holiday of destruction and patriotism. Taquilla, Jager, and Miss Mota did its job and in no time, neither me or ivan could stand straight.

random escapade from last night.

Weird drunk dudes, probably like ten of them, are all walking down the street. a guy comes up to us asking us for a ride and hell pay us 40 dollars.

so we denied and he persisted.

"dude, its free money. c'mon man, give us a ride"

then the unthinkable happens, he looks at ivan, wearing his stoner glasses and says, "4 bucks if you take those glasses off, theyre gay"

so theres more riff raff and ivan wants to fight, haha

so the guy walks away and ivan is pissed off for the next 30 minuets. hahaha

goodtimes.

Did i lose the chance?

yeah i feel like i got showed up.

haha, for lack of better words. i feel like someone beat me to the punch by doing something that i think is lame but probably was like superbadass for her.

but i hope like, that shes still interested in me.

haha, i just kinda forgot she reads these...

dammit xD

Being Sick

In this very moment, in my current state of illness,

no longer do i feel the pressures of momentary sickness.

nature is stronge. this we know as a fact.

Fishing.

i went fishing today with, Andy, Ivan, and Thao. besides being sick, not catching ANYTHING, and the extreme wind, it was a really awesome day. We all just kinda hung out and kept recasting our lines. haha, me and ivan caught a sesh so we were feeling pretty nice with the cool breeze. after we left, me and the guys went back to my house where they played wow and i downloaded an emulator for ChronoTrigger, and a .exe file of Final Fantasy 7.

im planning on replaying those 2 games because i stopped playing World Of Warcraft.

now, i have a reallly reallly runny nose, and i know tmw ima be wayyy more sick. so im going to get some rest so i can heal up just a little bit.

goodnight